So 2013 is nearly over. Thank goodness. It’s been a truly horrible year, the worst year of my life. It started out bad, with major flooding on our property, and as the months wore on, difficulty followed difficulty without respite and culminated in the deaths, just over a month ago, of two of the dearest people in my life, three days apart. In many ways, I’m still reeling.
Of course one has to keep plodding on, so in that spirit, I offer the goals I’d set for myself this time last year (in bold type), followed by my thoughts on how I did in actually achieving them. Then I’ll set my goals for the new year. Goals, not resolutions. Who the hell keeps resolutions, anyway?
1. Release my second music album, Reflected Moon. It’ll be comprised of both songs and piano-based instrumentals. Yes, I’ll be singing on the next album!
I did manage to record three tracks for this album, with a fourth partially recorded.
2. Finish drafting The Renunciate, my current novel-in-progress which is likely to be the first in a series.
I’ve put The Renunciate aside. Will I go back to it? I just don’t know at this point.
3. Get The Renunciate ready for publication and available for purchase via Kindle, Nook, and Smashwords.
Nada. My blogs have all languished.
5. Write more songs and instrumentals and become ever more confident and adept at digital recording, mixing, and mastering piano with vocals and other goodies.
I wrote two new instrumentals and one new song, so that’s something. And I did manage to get more confident and adept at recording, mixing, mastering and the like. Progress, drip by drip.
And now, here are my goals for 2014.
1. Take better care of myself so that I can regain my resiliency and my positive outlook. I miss both. That means going back to daily meditative practice, re-establishing an exercise routine, prioritizing good sleep, resisting my tendencies to spread myself way too thin, and kicking to the curb my tendencies to want to turn to fatty food for comfort.
2. Cultivate more gratitude for the good things in my life so I don’t suffer in the grip of a myopic obsession with the bad and the difficult. Yes, life has delivered mucho wallops this year, all in one short space, but there are still plenty of things to be grateful for.
3. Renew my commitment to my artistic endeavors. Music: I want to finish recording Reflected Moon in 2014 and hopefully release it. I also want to write new music. Fiction: I need to make friends with my fiction muse again. I’ve become more estranged from her than from my music muse. Yeah, they’re two different muses. In 2014, my goal is simply to find my way into at least one story I love and truly want to finish and share with the world. Maybe add some blogging to the mix, too, as I feel moved to do so.
What will 2014 bring? There’s no way to know, but my only “resolution” is this. I resolve not to lose sight of what is truly important in our ephemeral human lives: love, kindness, and compassion. No matter what.